Love Lockdown

Let me update you all with stuff before I get onto studying for my next Anatomy test tomorrow.

This morning I think I kicked my Anatomy Lab test's ASS. It's so nice going into a test, hyped and knowing almost all the stuff I needed. Oh yea, I almost got hurt really bad today, almost got hit by a car, but I'm okay. I was just angry at first, but then I realized that I was lucky I jumped out of the way. Right before i jumped though I saw this kinda flash of white light, maybe this was some type of sign from God. Who knows, I'm just thankful I'm not in the hospital.

To the point of this post and the title of it. I'm going to have to admit that I've made some pretty bad choices when it comes to girls. Like who I pick to crush on and pursue. And this isn't bad choices as in they're ugly or racist or something like that. But I've fallen for girls that realize I'm a good genuine guy and they take advantage of it. You know, I start falling for a girl and start trying to pursue her and she'll play with me and my heart. Lead me on to believe one thing and then turn and do something else. I can't let myself continue to be into these girls or these type of girls. I realized I need to experience stupid shit like this in order to realize the mistakes I've made. All I know is that they've missed out on a good thing yea damn right I'm getting cocky. But let's make that into confidence. Cause damn I know I'd treat a girl right, respect her and give her the world. I'm not about all these stupid mind games, sex or whatever else. I'm about living life with her and making her smile. I'm about growing and learning.

I have no idea how I got this way, to the point of where I'm kind of "mature" in love. I know pretty well want I want in a relationship, but of course I'm willing to keep on learning. My ipod is filled with music, about love and lost love chances and we'll see how the future goes.



I'm a hopeless romantic [and cheesy =)]...what can I say, I'm a sucker for smiles and laughs and just sharing quiet moments with someone I care about. Say what you want, make fun whatever. This is just who I am.

Things feel pretty good right now. I'm glad tomorrow is Halloween and my tests will be done.

Currently Listening To:
Steven Cole - Photographs and Memories Remix
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Recap of the Weekend/Can't Sleep

So it's still actually Wednesday. Fuck I am kinda nervous for my Anatomy Lab test tomorrow morning. That shit is so tough, like forreal. Muscles, their attachment sites, the nerves that innervate them. But I guess that just comes with the territory of being a Kinesiolgy major. It sucks!

This weekend at FACT was pretty awesome. The drive kinda sucked, hit bad Chicago traffic and that took about an hour and a half to get through...ughh. But Justin and I had fun being stupid in the car on the way there. The rain was crazy and the wind was gusting to strong that you could feel his car kinda sway and shake. So first night there, big party at the FIA hotel. Good stuff, met some people. Workshops on Saturday were alright. My first 2 kinda sucked balls, the speakers needed to know how to interact and not make it a freaking lecture! CMON! My last one was a Modern Dance workshop and I immediately assumed it was just gonna be dance. But our speakers: Kimmy Nguyen and Joe De La Rosa were actually just going to be talking about the business and stuff like that. Kimmy actually went one to talk about how Filipinos and Asians are underrepresented in American Media (Movies, Music, TV, etc). Since I am actually working with FIA and Phil Ozaki on a workshop about this stuff I was curious to see how people reacted and what they had to say. And I was kinda surprised, because a lot of the people did have that awareness about the lack of a positive representation. So I'd definitely looking forward to the workshop, hopefully going to change some minds, open some, and maybe recruit for AACC. Either way I just want to make at least a little change in at least a few people's minds. Oh so back to FACT, the Variety show was really good! FIA Modern killed it and the Spoken Word artist was real good too. Oh but, I can't forget the YOYO Guy. Seriously RAW talent, and pretty funny, got a standing O at the end. The Afterset at Canopy was pretty dope! Saw some old friends, danced a lot and definitely sweated buckets, yea gross I know. haha. But it was cool. And we then ultimately finished the whole trip off with a stop at Sonic down at Urbana. Mmmm, finally got to taste some of that food that's all over the TV.

So...as this week comes to a close I'm looking forward to getting all my Anatomy tests done (tomorrow my Lab Practical and Friday my Lecture test; wish me LUCK =)) Then back to the burbs for Halloween. Gonna finally see my Lil CUZ, Travis after like a MILLION freaking weeks. Miss that little kid. Hopefully my brother will come up on Saturday and sleepover at my place. We'll see.

Eye Candy:

Supra Skytop (Chad Muska) - Photo Courtesy of http://www.Sneakerfreaker.com [check 'em out!]



FIA Modern at FACT08 (University of Illinois @ Chicago)^

FACT Weekend 08

Let me tell you all how excited I am for this weekend (basically in about 5 hours haha). I'm heading to FACT08 at UofI and from what I hear it's a real good time. There are workshops there and the ones that I remembered I signed up for were the Modern (Hip Hop) Dance Workshop, Filipinos in Non Traditional Fields and Analysis of Fil-Am Movies. I'm driving down there with my friend from back home in the burbs Justin and also JR, Tin and Mike Lazaro from FIA. So I've heard the Variety show is sick and I heard the afterset at Canopy is even crazier. So here's to a weekend with a lot of learning and embracing of culture as well as a whole LOT of fun. 3 Hour car ride and Filipinos from all over the midwest. Let's get buck in here! haha

Oh might I add that my Ate Rose's boyfriend is spinnin at the afterset? Yea DJ FlipSide!

One of my NEW LOVES

So...I don't necessarily know when this new love of shoes came about. But I remember maybe it was my first time at FIA Modern tyrouts and I saw everyone had Nike Dunks and I saw the colors on them and I was like damnnn. Lol. So then I saw Nike Dunks High. Freakin High Tops, so old school but damn I cannot get enough of High Tops. So here's my wishlist/the shoes I plan to buy within the next 6-8 months. I freakin love sneakers.



Nike Dunk High Premium @ Finishline.com


Puma's The First Round Skate Sneaker @ Karmaloop.com



Supra's The Muska Sky Top @ Karmaloop.com



Gravis' The Cortex Mid Sneaker @ Karmaloop.com

All Pictures Courtesy of Karmaloop.com and Finishline.com

Let's See Where This Goes

Through all the internet fads and different networking sites, one thing I loved about a lot of them was the ability to journal or vent. But those were exclusively Xanga and LiveJournal, not many people did it on MySpace and even fewer on Facebook. I decided to start up this blog to just kinda, I guess, release and just type out and share cool artists, sneakers, stories and stuff like that. I really like sharing music and spreading the word about different artists. You know the ones who have some raw talent and the really good songs. So I'll use this. Also who doesn't go back and look at old posts on MySpace or Xanga and just laugh and see how stupid we used to be. haha. So I guess this will somewhat be funny a couple years down the line (possibly a couple months from now =)).

There's a lot going on right now for me. Schools been hella hectic and busy. Even with just 12 hours. Anatomy (Mvsc 251) and Calculus 1 (Math 180) are kicking my ass. Well kinda. Math is alrite, I don't know how I did so shitty on my first test. Anatomy's just tough but overall I like it. I've been so torn on my major for like most of this semester. I'll save a blog about that for later. This 2nd year of college is good, I'm treasurer of Asian American Coalition Committee (AACC). We help to spread the word, break stereotypes of Asian Americans, educate and stand up for Asian Americans as all whole. Our organization has done so much in the past years. We brought AARCC (Asian American Resource & Cultural Center) and we brough Asian American Studies to UIC. We might seem like all we do is kinda protest and preach, but we really are just trying to help Asian Americans progress and change the way we are precieved. We are Americans and we aim to better the world for us, our parents and families fought hard to come to this place called America and we have the strength to make this world a better place.

We're coming Asian American in every field (even outside of health care and engineering!) lol. Just wait!